My Testimony

If you’re a writer of any sort, you probably know the feeling; you can think of multiple ways to start, but you must choose only one. Well, here I go…

I recently read Jessica’s story. Except, right near the beginning she confessed that it isn’t her story; it’s God’s. I couldn’t agree more. A “testimony” is defined as evidence or proof of something, and in this case that “something” is God’s work. Thus, my testimony begins way back before I can remember and, in fact, before I or the world were around.

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will— to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves.

-Ephesians 1:3-6

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The truth of the above passage struck me afresh last year. I just believe it’s true. God chose me – and everyone else who is in Him – before the creation of the world. For obvious reasons, I wasn’t there to witness this choosing, but His Word testifies to that being where my story began.

Fast forward to when I was born. Given the interactions I’ve had with you dear readers in the comments, I get the feeling that many of you will relate to this. I was born into a Christian home. I was three days old the first time mum and dad took me to church and as I grew older, I had to be disciplined for not behaving during the service. I remember my parents reading the Bible and devotions to us around the table before I could read for myself.

Though I can’t remember everything about the night, I remember praying some variation of the sinner’s prayer, guided by my mom, when I was four or five years old. It was during my bedtime routine after she had read to me a portion of my children’s Bible. She wrote the date in the front of the book, but I don’t have it anymore.

It doesn’t matter that I lost possession of the book. I’m not entirely convinced that that was the moment that I went from death to life and that the Holy Spirit entered my life. I don’t know what moment was the moment. Jessica put it well, and I agree with her: I can’t isolate a moment to call my conversion. Rather, the Lord has graciously worked throughout my life to sanctify me.

I got baptized at seven. It was controversial; some people in my life said I was too young to understand the depth of what I was committing to. They were probably right. But it’s because of the controversy that one thing stood out to me and remains in my memory to this day; I may have been too young to understand, but I desired God.

In my pre-teen and early teen years, I constantly questioned my salvation. I had wavering assurance. I felt like I had to ask the Lord to save me over and over again – you know, just to be sure. I hadn’t yet learned to look back and remember times in the past that I had known God’s love to be true.

I was about fourteen years old when my relationship with God began to flourish and gain traction that has continued to this day. The Lord showed me idols in my life and gave me the grace to cut them out. If I felt there was a minimum amount of time I had to spend with Him, it no longer felt relevant. I was now eagers to spend time with Him. I started prayer-journaling. I had milestone moments with Him that I look back on with fondness, even today.

I’ve lived a very sheltered life. I’ve never experienced anything traumatic; no death or serious illness, no abuse or broken relationships. I’m convinced that as these things arise, the Lord’s grace will be all I need to endure them.

Let me wrap this up with a verse that is close to my heart and very relevant:

Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story—
those he redeemed from the hand of the foe,
those he gathered from the lands,
from east and west, from north and south.

-Psalm 107:2-3

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10 thoughts on “My Testimony

  1. It was so beautiful to read what God has done in your life. I have enjoyed watching your relationship with God grow over time. He has protected you from so much and will continue to guide you as your relationship grows. Thank you so much for sharing. I love you and I love what God is doing. You are most certainly a daughter of the King.

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    1. Thank you so much, Mummy! I just finished reading Darcy’s most recent blog post and I got to thinking… As you’ve raised us, you probably saw God’s grace and work in our lives in various ways, but as we both blog now, you must be seeing it in a new way as we share the things He impresses on our hearts. It must be extra special for you to see as our mummy; you’re such a huge part of how He worked in our lives since you taught us about Him since before we can even remember. Thank you so much for your part in our testimonies; all three of us. We love you! ❤

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  2. Yes! My testimony isn’t really mine but God’s. It’s testifying to how GOD saved me. And that began even before I was born, as that verse from Ephesians says (I love the book of Ephesians).
    My story is similar to yours… I’ve grown up in a Christian home, accepted Jesus into my heart and was baptized at the age of six… but it took several years for me to realize that I wasn’t living the way I should. When I was probably 11-12 or so I started to realize that. These past few years God has been showing me how to live for Him – and revealing idols in my life I’ve had to take down. Same as you, I’ve lead a somewhat “sheltered life” as you might want to call it.. I haven’t experienced death up close or the other things you mentioned. And when those things come in my life then I’m going to hope I get through them by the grace of God.
    Thank you for sharing “your” testimony Jordy! Yes, God has redeemed us! He paid the price for our transgressions and May we never loose the wonder of that fact! 🙂

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    1. It does sound like our testimonies are similar on a number of levels, Sarah! And yes, it will be the grace of God that gets us through future trials – the same grace of God that has guarded us against other pitfalls common to Christians who have grown up in the Church (pride, depending on our family background of faith, being quick to judge, etc). I find such assurance in looking back to see God’s faithfulness in the past. Past manifestations of God’s grace to me testify that I’m His and we know He doesn’t change!

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  3. I like how you brought out that our stories actually begin back in eternity! It’s incredible to think God thought about each individual one of us!

    Praise God for His work in your life! It’s encouraging to read your testimony of how God’s been drawing you to Himself. Stay strong, my friend! xx

    P.s Thanks so much for your emails – I’m hoping to reply very soon! Sorry for the delay.

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    1. I know, right? I can’t even begin to wrap my mind around a being who knew each of us countless centuries before we began to exist!

      Praise God indeed! X) He is so good!

      Also, I look forward to hearing from you… when you have the time to write and are confident that it’s a wise use of your time. No guilt needed!

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  4. It’s great to hear your testimony, Jordy! I don’t know what to say when people ask for my testimony, myself. I’ve had some issues – broken family, illness, etc. so I’m always tempted to bring them up when someone asks me just because I know that is an “acceptable” answer, if you will.

    But in reality, I haven’t been greatly effected by them and couldn’t realistically call them a part of my testimony. Outward things don’t effect me too quickly; what happens to me is mostly on the inside, and that’s hard to explain! I oftentimes have no idea how I learned something God taught me, etc.

    Like you, I was raised in a Christian home and haven’t had tons of great temptations to deal with. But I do hope and even believe that I could be strong in Christ. 🙂

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    1. I get what you’re saying; you’re more affected by what goes on inside that no one sees but the Lord. And that’s very hard to explain to others because the changes that He makes in your heart are harder to understand and track, let alone articulate. In her blog post that I linked to, Jessica shared her thoughts on this and included the perfect quote from the book ‘Steps to Christ.’ This is the quote she included:

      “A person may not be able to tell the exact time or place, or trace all the chain of circumstances in the process of conversion; but this does not prove him to be unconverted. Christ said to Nicodemus, “The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is everyone that is born of the Spirit.” John 3:8 Like the wind, which is invisible, yet the effects of which are plainly seen and felt, is the Spirit of God in its work upon the human heart. That regenerating power, which no human eye can see, begets a new life in the soul; it creates a new being in the image of God. While the work of the Spirit is silent and imperceptible, its effects are manifest. If the heart has been renewed by the Spirit of God, the life will bear witness to the fact.”

      The quote was talking specifically about conversion, but I get the feeling that it also applies to the ways the Lord works in our hearts following conversion.

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      1. That’s an excellent quote! Totally how I feel. It’s not like some big event in my life taught me this – it’s something that happened in my soul, and I don’t know where it came from, but I’m just grateful for what it taught me. 🙂

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      2. As I was reading your comment just now and considering the discussion, I was reminded of the lyrics of certain hymn: “I know not how the Spirit moves, Convincing men of sin, Revealing Jesus through the Word, Creating faith in Him.”

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