It’s a pattern for me. It’s a recurring issue. I resolve to appreciate the beauty of whatever season I’m in, yet I find myself fallen back into the same old, mediocrity. I tire of the rhythm of commitments I’m not passionate about.
I arrive home from work weary. I go to bed weary. And sometimes I wake up again still weary.
My thought life is different because by the Lord’s grace I know His Word and repeat it to myself to familiarize myself with His truth. But often, on an emotional level, I feel weary anyway.
I was recently in that rut. Again. I don’t intentionally think, “My way is hidden from the Lord,” or “My cause is disregarded by my God.” If I was that blunt, my issue would be obvious and I could deal with it more quickly.
Rather, I slip slowly down the slope from my most recent “spiritual high,” if you will – my most recent time of thriving in my relationship with the Lord. The descent is so gradual that I don’t realize it, especially given that I continue to read His Word and spend time with Him. My delight in Him – which once tainted everything in life – fades until all I feel is weary.
I know which passage to turn to when I feel at loss for strength for the mundane. Isaiah 40:28-31 has encouraged me in the past. I recently turned there again to be reminded of the strength that the Lord supplies:
Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary,
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who wait on the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
You can see why I come back to this passage over and over. It mentions “weary” four times – besides other variations such as tired and weak. It addressed these common problems with promises of the Lord providing strength to those who hope in Him.
This time, however, I started reading one verse earlier than I usually do. This is what I read:
Why do you complain, Jacob?
Whay do you say, Israel,
“My way is hidden from the LORD;
my cause is disregarded my my God”?
I realized that when the prophet Isaiah asked, “Have you not heard that the LORD is the everlasting God?”, he was asking a real question to real people. There’s more context behind it than I had ever realized. He was addressing the Lord’s covenant people of the Old Testament who felt that the Lord had abandoned them. Consequently, they felt weary.
Perhaps they were like me in that they felt drained from mediocre, passionless living. You’ve probably heard it put like this before; people in the Church often talk about “just going through the motions.” Given the lack of energy put into it, it’s a surprisingly exhausting way of life.
That’s when Isaiah interjected with His questions:
Do you not know? Have you not heard that the Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth?
It came to me like a wake-up call. How can I settle for mediocre when I know the God I serve?
It came to me to breathe passion back into my life. How can just go through the motions when I know the one who created and redeemed me?
Of course, it can happen and it does. Though I “know” the Lord is the everlasting God, I lose my appreciation of it. I lose sight of the glory of it. But that’s when, by the Lord’s grace, I come back to Him yet again and ask Him to give me a fresh vision of who He is which overflows into strength for every other part of my life.
Do you feel weary today?
Do you not know?