Now that I’m back in Cambodia, I’m starting to find routine again. I don’t want it to be the same routine I had before leaving, though. I want to make a point of noticing the beauty around me.
I want to take time to make myself a cup of honey-lemon hot water in the morning and thank God for it. I want to pray for my students, their parents, my bosses and my coworkers as I drive to work. I want to clean my house and cook my meals to worship music.
When I was in high school, I think I had this subconscious mindset of “life will really begin when I graduate.” Since graduating, I’ve viewed my life as being divided into short seasons according to when I’ve started jobs, moved houses or engaged in new ministries. With the turn of life seasons never being more than a few months ahead, I think I’ve continued to live as though life will begin in earnest once I’ve rounded the next corner or two, and that’s when I’ll engage in it the most fully.
It took me a long time to realize this about myself. If someone had told me about it a few months ago, I’m not sure I would have agreed or even understood. But now I’m noticing one idea that I was living by that shows the truth of the matter: I kept living in survival mode – as though, since the end of the season was in sight, I would just cling to the present mundane routine until it was over. Then I would live passionately.
Now I see that there’s beauty to enjoy now.
There’s beauty to enjoy while I’m working a job that I don’t feel passionate about. There’s beauty to enjoy while I’m not sure what country I’ll be in two years down the road. There’s beauty to enjoy while I wish I had more time to read and write and cook. There’s beauty to enjoy while I feel like I need more hours in a day.
There are sights and sounds and tastes to thank God for. There are people – precious souls – to smile at and thank for their time. There are meals to nourish our body and give us the strength we need to transition from task to task. There are hours of sleep each night and the quiet moments of the morning or day to meet with God.
There’s His Word.
And every thing of beauty is a small reflection of the Creator, telling us from a unique angle – if we’ll listen – something about the Wellspring of beauty. I want to notice these.
Life has already started. God’s graces are already around us. Let’s notice them, let’s consider what they teach us about His character, and let’s worship Him.
The LORD reigns, he is robed in majesty;
the LORD is robed in majesty and armed with strength;
indeed, the world is established, firm and secure.
Your throne was established long ago;
you are from all eternity.
The seas have lifted up, LORD,
the seas have lifted up their voice;
the seas have lifted up their pounding waves.
Mightier than the thunder of the great waters,
mightier than the breakers of the sea –
the LORD on high is mighty.
Your statutes, LORD, stand firm;
holiness adorns your house
for endless days.
Do you relate?
- Do you feel like life will begin in earnest at your next important milestone? Does life currently feel too monotonous to enjoy God’s gifts?
- Where do you see God’s beauty most spectacularly?
- What are some evidences of His beauty that you – or people in general – tend to overlook?
- What are you thankful for right now?
PS – I want to acknowledge all the wonderful people who have commented on my blog and haven’t heard back from me. I haven’t forgotten you, and I plan to prove it by responding to you soon!