Minding the house.
When a person comes to me – whether it be for a favor or to invest in a deeper relationship – my tendency is to immediately agree. I heap commitment upon commitment on myself.
It’s linked to pride, at least in part if not in whole. It strokes my ego that someone would come to me for help or would want to spend more time with me. I don’t want to turn that down. I think I can handle so many responsibilities. Not only so, but I think I can do a good job and impress whomever it is that has come to me. I think I have enough in me to do it all.
Over the past two weeks, I think I finally reached the end – of myself, my time, my resources, my resolve (hence no blog post last Saturday). I’d been told in the past that I simply can’t meet the needs of everyone in my sphere of influence, and I believed it at a distance. But finally, I can claim it for myself.
I. can’t. do. it.
Physically, emotionally, and probably spiritually, I just can’t bear to support every request brought to me or reach out to help every need. It seems like such a bleak, pessimistic thought, but perhaps it’s more accurately called “truth”.
However, where I am weak, Christ is strong.
This isn’t the part where I turn everything around and keep a jubilant smile as though I had never missed a beat. No, I’ve already established that I can’t do everything. That realization brought me to the end of myself and was a very difficult pill for me to swallow.
Nonetheless, I believe that God can give me all strength, courage, and perseverance to accomplish all that is on His schedule for me. And I believe that, if I’m willing to lay aside my pride and come to Him for these, then not only He can, but He will.
However, that leads me to more questions. I’ve taken a stab at answering them for myself, but instead of prolonging this post, I’m going to end it here and give you space to answer for yourself with minimal influence from me.
Thanks for listening to me this long. Here are the questions I’ve been pondering:
- How can we know when to accept a new commitment and when to (*gasp*) say “no”?
- How can we say “no” with grace and compassion, still not looking to our own interests but to the interests of the others?
- To what point should we sacrifice the care of our own health and bodies for the sake of fitting in more time to help another?